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18 Things to Remember From 2018

I’ve never really been one of those “can’t wait for the new year” people. New Years Eve has always been my least favorite holiday. I’ve never faulted a calendar number for what did or didn’t happen to me in life. But this year I caught myself anxiously awaiting 2018 to be over. Honestly, from the beginning of January, it was the start of what felt like never-ending waves knocking me down over and over again. By the time fall came around, I was ready to leave 2018 and just try and forget about it all. If I could push past and forget, it’d all go away eventually.

But a few months ago in a moment of prayer, I felt God convicting me about my desire to forget. In an urgency to forget my pain and bad memories, I was neglecting to remember how faithful and good God was to me in the midst of those situations. I was neglecting to remember His redemption, peace, and kindness. I felt like He was asking me to write down some of the things I needed to remember about this year but, truthfully, I procrastinated until today to do it. Some wounds still hurt when I think about them but I know this is a part of my healing process. And more than anything, I want to be able to look back at this over the years and let the memories build my faith and encourage me in the storms to come. And hopefully, it encourages anyone that reads it in the in-between.

18 Things to Remember about 2018

  1. When you were afraid of not being good enough, remember how He healed your heart and renewed your confidence.
  2. When you felt stuck, afraid of missing out on what the world had to offer, remember that He took you to new places you’d only dreamed of going to. You got to cross off bucket list items in a beautifully unexpected way.
  3. When you were crying alone in an ER waiting room, overwhelmed with panic and guilt, remember that He’s a healer and comforter. Remember the people He’s put in your life that dropped everything to come and be with you.
  4. When you did everything you could but couldn’t seem to shake that loneliness, remember how He surrounded you with friends that became family.
  5. When you were intimidated by trying new things, remember how He used it to reveal strength in you that He already saw. 
  6. When you felt misunderstood, remember that He’s a friend that sticks closer than a brother. He understands more than any human being ever could.
  7. When you felt that life was unfair, remember that there’s not a single injustice that He couldn’t and wouldn’t redeem.
  8. When your heart broke for your loved ones, remember that He cared for and protected them more than you ever could.
  9. When the thought of tomorrow seemed daunting, remember that life never caught Him off guard.
  10. When anxiety felt like it was there to make permanent residence in your heart, remember how He steadied and healed you as you clung to Him.
  11. When you were frustrated with your progress and felt like you lost your rhythm, remember His kind and unending patience and grace.
  12. When the weight felt too heavy to carry, remember that He never asked you to do it alone.
  13. When you were filled with worry about letting go, remember that He was at work while you were at rest.
  14. When the numbers didn’t add up and expenses kept growing, remember that He never stopped being the God of “more than enough.”
  15. When things didn’t go as planned, remember that it all worked out exactly as He intended (and it was better than you could’ve hoped for.)
  16. When vulnerability felt daunting, remember that He didn’t treat your trust lightly. He’s a safe place.
  17. When you needed a change in perspective, remember how He taught you how to see the world in the light of gratitude. It made life so much more fun.
  18. When you were inclined to forget instead of forgiving, healing, or growing – remember He loved you too much to let you stay where you were. It’s worth it to remember.

 

At the beginning of the year, the words I felt God spoke over my 2018 were “Capacity and Reliance” and there’s not a single day that’s gone by that those words didn’t cross my mind. It truly has been a test of how much I could carry as much as it’s been a test of how much I could trust. But it wasn’t a test for God to find out the answers, it was for Him to use it to reveal to me what He saw since before I took a breath on this planet.

I am leaving 2018 with so many good memories, growth, and expectancy for what’s to come. I know there’s going to be challenges with every new adventure, but if anything, this year has just solidified to me that it’s always worth it.

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The Difference Between First and Last

After several years of the same drive to and from work, my commute is essentially muscle memory. I know as soon as I exit the highway I’m almost in my own bed – just a few more turns and I get to go to sleep. The only problem is that sometimes the light right off the service road takes FOREVER. Or at least it seems like it…

A few months ago I was driving home late at night after a long day. As I pulled closer to the light, I could tell that my window of time to make my left turn was slim but if I gunned it, I could make it. To be honest, most of the time (if I know I can make it safely) I floor it. But in a split-second subconscious decision, instead of trying to squeeze in on the tail end of the cars ahead of me, I hit the brakes.

I waited. And waited. And then the light turned green.

As I hit the gas and started to turn, out of what seemed like nowhere, I heard God speak to me so clearly “Sometimes the difference between being first and last is waiting your turn.”

His voice snapped me out of my groggy state of mind and as only He can do, brought so much peace and revelation to my spirit.

Over the last 5 years there have been promises, dreams, ideas, and more that I felt like I was “coming last” in. It seemed like it was the time to move so I’d gun it, take action, take things into my own hands. And although sometimes they’d get done, or for the sake of my analogy, I made the turn before the light turned red – there was just something unsatisfactory about accomplishing something on the tail end.

There was anxiety. There was insecurity. There was doubt. But there was not that sense of accomplishment or peace that comes with following God’s will.

After many seasons and opportunities of jumping the gun on the will of God, I learned to chill out. Unfortunately this happened the hard way. There was pain when I had to let go of things I was holding too tightly. There was a jolt when I hit the brakes unexpectedly on projects or opportunities. But even in my learning the hard way, God’s grace was consistent. His love was continually towards me. He was the most patient teacher and the most faithful friend.

So in 2017 I learned to wait. Wait on God. Wait for my turn. Wait for the green light.

I realized that there is something waiting does that hard work and responsibility can’t do on their own.

And when the time came at that intersection for me to take off, I wasn’t a hurried last but an anticipatory first. I knew it was my turn. I knew I not only got to set the pace for me but for those behind me. And as God spoke those words to me, the purpose of the seasons I’d been walking through suddenly became so clear.

God loves me too much to let me put myself in last place when He’s called me to be a pace setter.

God loves me too much to let me make myself anxious when He knows He can offer me peace.

God loves me too much to let me exhaust my own strength when His is abundant.

As I waited this year, my green light came. I’ve never felt more certain that I’m right where I’m supposed to be. I don’t have all the answers, I don’t know what comes next, and sometimes day to day I don’t entirely know what I’m doing. But I know that I’m unhindered in running after what God’s called me to do.

Although this was months ago now, I can’t stop thinking about it. When I’m praying through decisions or opportunities now, I wait for my green light.

As you step into 2018 – If you’re feeling like you’re in last place. If you’re franticly trying to get in on the wins of those going ahead of you. If you’re honestly not sure if you’re ever even going to make it to whatever God’s called you to or whatever that dream is in your heart… wait.

Wait, wait, and keep on waiting. It’s going to be worth it. And when the green light comes, floor it with all you’ve got.

Looking Back for the sake of Pressing Forward

I have been home from London for exactly a month today. My friend Shelbie and I spent 11 weeks there serving at Cross Street Baptist church in the borough of Islington.

We truly had no idea what we were getting ourselves into when we agreed to go on this trip. It all happened very quickly. The opportunity presented itself in May out of nowhere, July we were buying our plane tickets, September we were on the other side of the world. All we knew was that we would be helping maybe start a youth group and do some work around the church. We weren’t even sure where it was we were staying. Bu,t I personally felt so much peace even though I tend to be a bit of a control freak. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that this is where God had called me to be. Within His will, there is perfect peace.

To make a long story short, I’m glad we went in with a blank mental canvas because everything was much different than I could have ever expected. I had never served at another church apart from the Harvest and this church was quite different. Not bad, just obviously different cultures. We had to adapt but it was good for us and good for them to mesh all the ideas from both parties. It was such a welcoming and loving place to be. We felt so at home just being with all the people there that took us in right off the bat. Especially Pastor Nestor and his family whom we lived with for a month.

We spent most of our time helping bring structure to the church services, groups, and just being a support to Pastor and helping implement the projects he had in mind. We started a community group/bible study, preached a few times, and started a pre-teen youth group that ended up growing from 3 kids to on one occasion 13 kids. We were able to invest in and love on some of the most amazing children in the UK in my opinion.

One of our church connections there was being involved with an internship from another church that had a group of about 10 interns that were our age and that was one of my favorite parts of the trip. We made some really great relationships with them. Having that community was often Shelbie and I’s saving grace. Sometimes after a long week all we needed to unwind was making pizza with our friends for close to 6 hours. None of us knew it took that long to make home made pizza ha.

I honestly believe that the biggest change that took place over that trip was what God did in me. I’ve never been away from home that long. I really learned to trust God in a whole new way. I learned new things about myself and faced things I had been denying. But ultimately, I felt so free to be myself. For the first time I felt that I could really show myself and not have to put on a face or try to perform or meet an expectation of me. And because of this, I never felt happier. I learned that I didn’t have to be away from home to be myself but it took being away for me to realize this. I went to a whole new and deeper place with my relationship with the Lord.

On the non-spiritual end of things, we also had a blast. London is my favorite city in the world. In my favorite country in the world. I have always been fascinated with England so it was so cool that God would allow me to spend a few months there doing what I love. On our days off we really took advantage of the proximity of all the nearby beauty. Some days we spent roaming around on the bus seeing the never ending sites of the city. We went to the London Film Festival, saw a few shows in the West End, and covered as many museums as we could. Other days we would take a train and venture out to explore England. We went to a forest and bay in Gloucester, traced the steps of C.S. Lewis of and Tolkien in Oxford, climbed medieval steps in Warwick at the castle, went camping in Kent, and even got to spend a few days in France. For someone who loves learning and history as much as me, this trip was a dream come true.

I want to keep this short and sweet but as I reflect back on my time I will probably post on here and transfer entries from my paper journal I kept. But know this- 11 weeks made a huge difference in my life, and I believe in the lives of the people we got to minister to. We saw big steps in people getting close to the Lord because of the way God used us.

We were beyond blessed that He chose us of all people. Now, on to the next step. I’m not entirely sure what this next season of my life will bring but if I have learned anything from my past it’s that with Him every day is better than the last.

I recently found out that I get the chance to staff the Mvmnt Missions trip to Scotland. I am greatly looking forward to go back to the UK and see what God is going to do!

PS: I have a few pictures up on my Facebook account here and will post the rest soon. I also have several pictures on my Instagram account here

He Remains Faithful: London, Fall 2014

It shocks me til this very day how easily we can let our relationship with God become a boring routine. Clocking in to our prayer times or to a church service from muscle memory and nothing more. The past few years God has been trying to shake me awake from my long and groggy daze. He has peeled back the fuzzy film through which I was viewing the world. That’s the funny thing about all this is you never really know that you weren’t experiencing the most of life until you get a glimpse with clear vision. The same way people go years without glasses not realizing it’s not normal for the world to be hazy. But once you put the lenses on, there’s no going back. If I had to pick one simple metaphor and concept to describe the past season of my life, that is it. I once was blind, but now I see.

When God knocked at my door, I followed him out and I haven’t ever come back to pick up the anger, the depression, and the bitterness I left behind. He has shown me so much of the world (metaphorically and literally). Over the past few years I have been to several countries and states all over the globe. But I have also stayed. I committed 2 years of my life to The MVMNT Internship straight out of high school and the combination of the travelling and planting myself and committing to the church has shaken my life. He has shown me the world but He has also shown me myself.

He turned my mourning into dancing and set me free from all my shame. There was no way I could keep it to myself.

I have been doing my part serving at my church, The Harvest and leading small groups, disciplining girls, serving in the office. Wherever I could lend my time and my heart, I was there. And with every passing day, even when I am exhausted or worn-out, I am reminded of the words of Isaiah “Here I am, send me.” And that He has.

I was surprised last month when the opportunity came up for my best friend Shelbie and I to be sent to London this September for 10 weeks. Our Pastor knows of a church in central London that could use some help bringing life to the congregation and the city and by an amazing (and rather sudden) turn of  events we were both enlisted to take this journey together.

What is especially shocking to me is that I have been praying since I took a vacation there in March that God would bring me back to the city my heart was so in love with and broken for. Every time I would take a bus or walk the streets, all I could think of was different ways to come back and be a light in that city. As soon as I came home I began to research costs of living, missions programs, churches, internships, and anything like that that would help me get the foot in the door of this unrealistic dream. No one knew about it because honestly it seemed too good to be true. But God knew. And He saw my heart and heard my prayers.

A few weeks later, my Pastor was speaking about shaking up your faith so you don’t grow complacent. The whole sermon I just felt a burning in my heart for the city of London. I  tried to keep my tears back with the compassion that was consuming me. Towards the end of the sermon, God gave me a vision and in the vision I was standing in front of Him and He handed me a London snow globe that the snow had stopped falling on. It was all settled on the bottom. As I was looking at it He said to me “I need you to turn the city upside down.” I tipped the little snow globe and watched as the snow fell all over the city again and felt the most amazing peace and satisfaction in that moment. I knew the snow was signifying the love God wanted to pour out over the city.

What I believed was a promise that would take years to fulfill took mere weeks. And now, here I am. He is sending me and I leave this September (with my best friend nonetheless) to go love on the people of London and serve and build up the church we are partnering with.

It is all exciting and I know there will be challenges but I know with even more conviction that He is good. Even now, I still tear up with the endless reminders of His faithfulness to me.

All that’s left between me and this journey is a couple of months and some funding. Which is where I reach out to you, already grateful that you have taken the time to read this testimony of God’s goodness in my life. Between now and the first week of September, roughly 2 months, I need to raise about $2,000 dollars. I have a huge peace about this because I know that without a shadow of a doubt, God has called me to this.

But if you feel lead to help Shelbie and myself in this endeavor, we would be incredibly grateful for any financial and prayerful support. Any dollar or thought towards us as we take this on is a blessing. Any financial contributions can be made through the Harvest Church by going to bit.ly/HelpUsGoToLondon or to my PayPal account: Bianca.Barja@gmail.com.

And if you are not able to contribute financially at this time, all we can ask is for your prayers. We will be interceding for the city of London, the pastors and congregation of Cross Street Baptist Church in London, and for God to do His will in and through us on this trip.

We will be starting a blog/newsletter here soon as well to keep everyone updated on this amazing opportunity, so keep your eyes peeled!

Thank you again so much for your support! We are incredibly grateful!

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I am going to Scotland!

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Hello friends and family, I hope this letter finds you well!

Since I have graduated from The MVMNT Internship/Logos Christian College, I have been working in several different areas at The Harvest church. From leading small groups, to administrative work, and our missions program. Mvmnt Missions is a program designed for Jr High – College Age students to train for five months in a classroom setting to be a missionary and then end the program with an overseas trip. This year we are sending 73 students divided up into four teams to: Thailand, Scotland, Haiti, and Kona. I and four other staff will be taking a group of around 20 young professionals to spend a few weeks in Scotland from July 21st – August 2nd, 2014 serving the people there and proclaiming the good news of the gospel.

Our primary goal for this trip is to go and serve the churches that are established there. Whether we help do some repairs around the church, or help lead services, our goal is to go and be a blessing to them. We will also be doing some street ministry during this time to go and be the church outside of the church.

I’m so excited to see what will come from this trip not only in and through me, but in these young professionals. I am so excited to see how God will move through and continue to develop this group of college students. Last year being a part of the Thailand trip was phenomenal so I am ready to see what is in store for us in Scotland! Over the past 3 years of being on The Mvmnt staff God has totally transformed my life and I believe that by going on this trip, I will be able to share some of this joy and love with the people of these countries.

God has opened up a door for me to develop a greater heart of compassion for His people around the world. As I prepare to embark on this journey, I would like to ask you to be able to share in this excitement with me. I would be so blessed by your partnership with me and my team as we go and try to make a difference. Primarily, I ask that you help cover me and my teammates in prayer. We need prayers that God will prepare us for our trip, that He will open up our eyes and our hearts to see what He wants to do through us, and for God to open up the hearts of the Scottish people to receive the gospel. We also need prayers that our financial needs will be met. At this time I need to fundraise over $2,000 to cover the costs of my trip. I know God has ordained me to go on this trip and that He will provide financially, and on deeper levels as well. All prayers are greatly appreciated by me and my team, and I believe that they will play a key part in reaching out to the Scottish people.

Another way you can be involved is to help provide financial support. If you could consider supporting me with a small donation, it would bless me in a huge way! If you feel led to contribute, please make checks payable to Bianca Barja and you can mail them to my home (comment with your email address and I can send you my home address!).

Or if it is easier you can pay online by clicking here or the “Support my trip to Scotland!” link at the top of the page.

When on the online giving page,

  • Type in amount desired to give
  • Where it says “Designation” click on the drop down menu and select “Scotland Trip 2014”
  • For “Enter name of team member you wish to donate toward”, fill in: Bianca Barja
  • Fill in your email address, and then hit continue!

Whether you feel led to contribute financially, through prayer, or both, all of your support is appreciated!

I look forward to doing God’s work in Scotland and letting you know all about how God has worked through this team when I return.

Thank you so much!

Bianca Barja

For more information about Mvmnt Missions and for blog updates while I’m abroad, visit MvmntMissions.com

Coming Home

You’ve longed all your life to go home. You never new what that meant. You were so far gone that the dump and the filth you found yourself in became your living quarters. You made friends with the rats and cared for the rubbish because it was the only thing you could own. “How could I long for home when this is the only life I’ve known?” Like a stray dog that had no memory of running through the hole in the fence as a pup. Someone, somewhere, was broken hearted at your loss. Plastering the town with signs hoping for the world to know to keep an eye out for you. To look after you. To tell you that you belonged to a home. All that junk kept you from him. You were buried too far in it. And it broke His heart. He couldn’t take it any longer knowing that at night you cried yourself to sleep. That you had no one to tuck you in. You had no one to teach you how to ride a bike or read you stories. That you were trying to build a home with mounds of trash. You were royalty. So, He sent me. The big brother you’d been hoping all your life you had. I think deep down you knew what you were searching for, but the reality around you could not make sense of the longings in your heart. It was hard work trudging through all that muck and mess. Who knew your little world had become so vile. This was no way for anyone to live. I got scraped up. Banged up. Cut up. Sharp pieces of glass ripping at my clothes. My hands cold and tired. I was stained and smelly but I had to find you. I came all this way and I wasn’t going back to dad empty handed. When finally, I heard the soft whimpers beneath some tattered rags and I lifted them up. My heart sank. There was so much joy filling my heart to see those eyes in person looking back at me. But I didn’t think I could bear that throbbing pain to see my baby sister feeble and damaged. I picked you up. Before I could even say a word you threw your arms around my neck and sobbed my name into my chest. Neither you or I needed to say a word. The urgency of your grip tightened as your memories from infancy all came rushing back to you. How you were enticed by the open door Dad warned you about. How you couldn’t find your way home. The despair and shame you tried to cover up with those tattered rags. And the more you built your own home among the garbage, the fainter the memories of Home got until they were gone all together. But now, standing here with me. I knew you knew. I knew your heart would not be long in coming to me. “Where’s Dad?” you sobbed. “He’s not mad at you. What you did broke his heart. He searched everywhere for you but you hid from us without even knowing you were doing it. He sent me to find you. He couldn’t give up. He wouldn’t give up until He had you. You don’t have to run anymore. I’m going to take you home. But first, let me help you clean up.” We walked together as I led you to the stream. You disrobed and I helped you bathe. Scrubbing away all the stench and mud. Cleaning your wounds. It reminded me of how I helped Dad look after you as a baby. You were always a baby in my eyes. I think sometimes it frustrated you because you had a desire to be very much grown up. But I think now you understand I just wanted to protect you. To love you. When you arose from the water, you heard the voice of your Father. Like a familiar melody. You ran to Him. Clinging to Him. Never wanting to let to go again. “I’m sorry Daddy” you sobbed. “All that matters is that you’re coming home now. There’s a banquet waiting for us. Let’s go.” And as you both began to run together, you called out to me. I would be with you all soon, I said. I wouldn’t be late to the banquet. In fact, I had to pick up some very important guests. You knew. You knew I was going to stay behind and clean up and empty out that dump. I saw the giant smile on your face when you realized there were more brothers and sisters that were going to find their way to their special spot at the dinner table as you were about to do. You really did take after Dad.

The Joy of the Lord is My Strength

These past couple weeks have honestly been really difficult. Every single one of us have been having a hard time and on top of it all- our leaders were being attacked too.

I took it as a good sign that obviously we’re doing something right and satan isn’t gonna put up with it anymore, but it was still a tough battle to fight especially when we’re all being attacked.

All of our leaders and/or their kids were really sick so classes on Monday morning for Logos were cancelled which actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise because our business project team got to meet. I won’t go into a whole bunch of details just yet, but the vision of Teo’s that we’re working on is incredible. I am so excited to actually be working on one of the first very rough drafts of Taste and See. When this thing comes to pass in the near future, it is going to be world changing.

When I got home that day I started working on my book review for the Pursuit of Holiness. I had chapter 17, the final chapter, and it was on the Joy of Holiness. I was already really excited to do it because whenever Brad was talking about Holiness in the Body and was so passionate about it, I remember specifically thinking “I wish my chapter was something I was really passionate about, like joy”… and what do ya know? It was.

It was only a 4 page long chapter but God just spoke to me SO much reading it and gave me a deeper understanding of what the author was trying to say as well as spoke to me new revelations that not only applied to the book review, but to my life.

I’ll post a few of my notes below but to go see the rest of what God spoke to me on you can click here!

A Holy life produces the anticipated reward

  • Victory follows obedience always.

–          You’re in a fixed fight, to get the prize all you have to do is finish the race but even sometimes that can be difficult.

  • “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” Hebrews 12:1-3

–       Last Thursday I was having a really rough day and I was sitting in the sanctuary before church and God led me to this verse. It really spoke to me in that moment. God reminded me that you guys/Mvmnt students are my “great cloud of witnesses” and to just throw off all the junk that’s been hindering me from running. I love the way it says sin “so easily entangles”, it’s so true! I realized that I’d been letting stupid little things get in the way of my holiness and joy. I’ve wanted a faith boost and reading that He was the creator, and perfecter is so amazing! If we want the perseverance and holiness that Christ carried, we need to fix our eyes on Him and see how He lived. FOR THE JOY SET BEFORE HIM He endured the shame and pain of the cross. He knew there was a prize coming. He took joy in saving billions of souls. He took joy in doing the will of the Father. He took joy in suffering. He knew what he was fighting for and rejoiced in what was to come even though His current situation was painful. We need to consider that and have the same joy in seeing students’ lives changed that Christ had being nailed to the cross for us. He endured it all so that we would not lose heart. Take heart in knowing that Jesus dealt with suffering, and even then He was fighting for your joy.

  • Just like Jesus wouldn’t let hardship throw off the anticipation of joy for getting His reward, don’t let circumstances deprive you of your anticipation.
  • Joy not only results from a holy life, but produces a holy life

–       The exiles returned to Jerusalem after being in captivity for 70 years under the Babylonians. They got back to their promise land to see it all torn apart. When Nehemiah was speaking to them, they had just finished rebuilding the walls of the city but that wasn’t enough. Their lives were completely in shambles. Their beloved city was ruined, they were slaves, they’d forgotten their spiritual heritage but above all, they had forgotten God. Finally, Ezra stepped up to the plate and everyone “came together” as one to hear him read out of the book of the law. He read literally all day long clearly and giving meaning to what was written so that people could understand. They had to go back to the law and the people wept because they knew they couldn’t do it on their own. They knew they’d been disobedient and that they had to get back to His law. That’s when Nehemiah steps in in Nehemiah 8:10 and says “Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength”.

–       Their circumstances were already rough to begin with. I honestly almost cried a little thinking about what it’d be like to be in their position and literally having to start everything over again from square one. And on top of it all, they just got a huge slap in the face from their own disobedience. But Nehemiah knew that even though obeying God was going to be incredibly difficult, especially after so many years of disobeying, but that the joy God was going to feel seeing them return back to Him was going to make everything worth it

–       Obedience is difficult, but let the fact that it brings God joy give you strength to persevere

– If you begin to rely on your own joy to give you strength, there’s a pretty good chance you are always going to fail. Although God intends a holy life style to be joyful, it is often accompanied with sorrow and suffering and if you’re dependent on your own joy in those situations, you will make no progress. But if you are dependent on the joy of the LORD for strength, whenever you are in obedience you will always be able to persevere.

 

That was just a little snippit of the breakthrough God wanted to do in me that week.

The next day I decided to see what it would be like having my quiet time in the morning rather than at night so I woke up early and prayed. Then during corporate intern prayer, spirit of God MOVED. I had all sorts of breakthrough just get unleashed and it was ridiculous. It was the start of a good day for sure because later on I scored a run in wiffle ball. It was a legendary moment in my life.

Wednesday I finally got to share my book review turned mini message with the class and that was super fun! Shelbie Gil and I had webcam fun in celebration

Ministry time at Mvmnt that night was insanely powerful. I got to pray with someone recommitting their lives to Christ and several people got delivered from shame in their life.

It’s really emotionally draining to pray for people that start crying when you pray cause then I start crying and it’s just an emotional spiral from there. I had my own breakthrough moment that night as well. I really want to share about it but I must wait for a more opportune time since I haven’t told really any one else yet. So… patience.

Thursday we went to a homeless shelter downtown called The Bridge. It was really an amazing experience even though we only got to tour the property. Just hearing about their heart for the homeless and how much they’ve changed Dallas in their 3 years since opening was powerful. I can’t wait to go back and serve!

Thursday was also Bree’s birthday! Since she and Jess are my accountability group this month, we got to have a fun birthday lunch at Chilli’s and the waiters sang and gave us free desert. Fun times were had by all.

To quickly summarize the rest of the week- Thursday night ministry time was just as powerful as Wednesday night. Pastor D was back and was PREACHIN!

Mary came into town and we visited Julia in the hospital, watched Joseph King of Dreams, and carved a pumpkin. Then that night was the famous Great Pumpkin Chase. Oh my lanta. I have never forced myself to be that competitive and energetic in my entire life and I felt it Saturday because I literally slept all day long.

Sunday I finished Hinds Feet on High Places and Pastor D preached it up at The Harvest and it was a very timely word. One thing he said that really stuck with me was

“It’s still a yoke and it’s still a burden- but His yoke is easy and His burden is light.”

I promise that once I catch up on all the posts I’ve been late on they will be overall less scattered. Until then, I apologize.